Another month has passed and has turned in to the 2 year mark of trying to conceive ... last year i miscarried twice once in march and once in December. Our doctor believes that it has happened due to the morphine i had to take with my back.. but they are not admitting that morphine effects fertility in anyway.. but when i read online i find that morphine gives you a 80% chance that if you get pregnant you will miscarry.. if i knew that i never would have taken the medication and would have chosen something else. It was devastating to look two more children .. in my life i have lost 4.. so when doctors ask me how many pregnancies i have had i tell them 7 .. not that i would have wanted 7 in my life.. but i would have been okay with 5.. and then i would be finished.
In march i miscarried at 5 weeks and in December i miscarried at 4 weeks and this one had absolved back in to my body just like my miscarriage before our son tanner . I am thankful that i did not have to make sure everything was released with the second one.. as it was quick and less painful.. but the miscarriage in march was hell i was cramping so bad that i had to take narcotics for 2 days and i was in bed for 5 , heavy bleeding . We have been tracking my cycles every month... we have tried at home insemination.. i have tried taking vitamins to boost my immune system.. hubby is on vitamins.. nothing is working.. We have tried less stress., healthier eating, different techniques and positions.. it has been another 6 months from the last miscarriage in December 2016 and nothing .. so our next step has been to go to our family doctor to get refereed to a fertility doctor to see how they can help.. maybe it is something simple as my doctor is thinking but she is asking me to go to a pelvic ultrasound to check all my female organs and then she would like more blood work from me before we go to see the fertility doctor and then hubby needs to give a sperm sample and blood work to check out his testosterone. I am currently awaiting my results for my pelvic ultrasound , my doctor assures me that their is probably nothing wrong as i don't have any female problems like cysts, endometriosis , tipped uterus etc when i get more results i will update this post with more details Keep connected here is All my social medias Tweet me : https://twitter.com/lolasdreamhouse Facebook me: https://www.facebook.com/lolasdreamhouse/ Find me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/lolasdreamhouse/ Find me on Pinterest: https://www.pinterest.com/Lolasdreamhouse/ Tumblr: https://www.tumblr.com/dashboard Email me: [email protected] XOXO LOLA R I fell on March 7th 2017 in my back alley when i was picking my son up from school.. I broke my ankle in all 3 places including breaking my femur bone off my ankle bone.. Something i never thought would happen.. it was -18 degrees Celsius outside and colder with the windchill it was very slippery.
Recovery : How long did it take me to recover ? I am still currently recovering day by day .. someday's are more difficult then others .. My doctor has told me that it would take me 6 weeks but since i broke my femur bone it is going to take longer .. I really struggle sometimes with the pain.. if i walk to much i am in pain and it is a struggle at that point for me to walk , Sometimes you are not able to touch my leg because it is in so much pain. Other than that i can walk pretty well now .. defiantly different than i use to. The first 6 weeks were the most filled with pain.. when i got out of the hospital i had pain medication to take but it didn't last long since the hospital here in Canada where i live is very ridiculous in giving people the proper medication at home.. i defiantly think because it is a fear for them that people will abuse it. How long did my cast stay on? I had a surgical cast on after the doctor reset my bones before surgery and that was for 5 days and then i had plaster cast on my leg for another 2 weeks and then when that was taken off along with my staples i then got a hard cast which was suppose to stay on for 6 weeks depending how it was healing.. since mine was healing i had gotten to a point where i couldn't stand the cast any longer at about 5 weeks .. so i found a way to cut it off.. honestly when i got to the end and it was off.. my leg and foot was very very sore and i really saw how bad my foot really was.. i knew it was bad but i was so tired of not being able to do anything.. it took me 2 hours .. i am a very determined person .. very stubborn.. my parents and husband panicked .. i didn't panic i knew i would be okay.. It took me awhile to gain strength in my leg and foot.. but having the cast off for about a week felt so much better than having it on.. i was able to have a bath and soak my foot.. even though it was a struggle for me to get out of my deep tub. Everyday things had gotten better than the day before.. but i can honestly tell you i sat in my bed a lot of nights pouring tears because i was so traumatized Did you have any help at home ? Yes!!! I didn't have a choice i really couldn't do much for 4 weeks .. my whole family jumped in to help .. As i could not stand for more than 10 minutes.. i couldn't shop .. i could barley get out of the car ... I should have used crutches but i never got them right so i didn't use them.. i always had a fear i would fall.. not for me Scarring: How has your scars healed? My scars have healed well.. i had over 30 staples all together .. i was pretty shocked when the doctor took off my second cast and i found out i had staples not stitches Are your scars painful? No not really.. if someone or something bangs against them then yes they will hurt How do you feel about your scars? at first i had such a hard time .. because i didn't want these long scars down my feet and people looking at me.. i don't care what people think but it was making me feel very insecure about myself ... as the months have passed since my accident , i have learned to live with them.. they don;t make me feel bad about myself.. i have learned that if people want to stare they can .. doesn't bother me . I know that things happen and i am thankful it didn't get any worse like breaking my arm with my leg.. How has this accident changed you ? I had major anixety , panic attacks and PTSD before i feel since i was 4.. and i got PTSD from my abusive relationship for 5 years .. when i was 18-23 .. After i feel mysteriously everything went away .. I don't panic about things i use to.. i just don't feel that its needed.. not like i could turn it off before.. but i think you can learn to re train your body and mind to think another way especially in shock .. its hard to explain but i just felt like if i am going to keep going in life.. i needed to start living again.. so i made a choice to live better .. i made a choice to love better.. and i made a choice to be grateful for everything .. Life is such a gift.. and even though i knew this in my life.. i guess i was stretching myself thin.. getting no sleep.. putting my kids and family before myself and this was draining me very badly.. spiritually.. sexually.. mentally.. physically.. it was hard.. I can not say that i enjoyed this accident to happen to me.. but on another real level i do think that maybe it was meant to happen .. for people to see how much i really do for them.. for the people in my life to realize that i am here for a purpose far more than being used by family and friends. I think this has calmed me in a weird way.. i think this has made a huge moment in my life where i needed to find me again.. i needed to fall in love with myself all over again.. from the ground up.. somehow i needed a wake up call and this maybe was it.. Do you still have flashbacks? dreams about the accident? Yes sometimes i do .. in the beginning it was every hour or less.. and i couldn't get any sleep.. i would cry all the time.. but now as 3 months has passed i get flashbacks only once every few weeks .. which is good.. something like the cold wind will trigger it .. and then i pour tears.. but i am thankful for the moments i get to share with my family .. and knowing the support i have behind me . Keep connected here is All my social medias Tweet me : https://twitter.com/lolasdreamhouse Facebook me: https://www.facebook.com/lolasdreamhouse/ Find me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/lolasdreamhouse/ Find me on Pinterest: https://www.pinterest.com/Lolasdreamhouse/ Tumblr: https://www.tumblr.com/dashboard Email me: [email protected] XOXO LOLA R |
Lola28 year old Mom of 3 under 6 (2 boys 1 girl), TTC baby #4, Married to my soul mate, Photographer, nail artist, amazon reviewer, fashion addict, Looking to make a postive impact on this world one story at a time. I am looking to inspire people with love and peace Archives
June 2017
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