I am starting a new series on my blog called FAQ Thursday, Where I will answer questions on specific topics , they can be past , present or future questions which I will elaborate more deeply on specific questions
Do I remember my first love? Where is he now? Yes, I first fell in love when I was 15 and didn't date the guy until I was 16 after I had graduated high school. We dated for 3 years until I was 19. We were going try again when I was 21 but we just didn't seem to click on any levels before. Our relationship was a huge learning process for the both of us, I was trying to find myself in this world , who I was , where I wanted to go and he seemed like he already knew who he was and eventually wasn't interested in me bettering myself , he just wanted a better me. I poured myself in to my job and he pulled further and further away for months upon months in to another girls arms, I knew exactly what he was doing but I just didn't want to believe in the pain, I didn't want to believe that he would stoop to that low and break our relationship. When we ended our relationship he moved out of my house and when I came back from work he left his ring I had engraved for him on my living room table to say goodbye. We are distant friends now , he checks on me once every few months and sometimes only once a year. We have let go of the past and moved on. He is married with 2 kids and I am married with 3 kids, We don't live in the same city anymore. Would I have changed my life to have my children at an older age then I was? Absolutely not!!!! I believe in the moments that I have been through has made me who I am today, yes every moment I went through raising my boys alone were hard, and sometimes they broke my soul to the core. Sometimes I would put them to bed and cry myself to sleep because my pain was so bad of what i was going through , but deep inside me has learned that I needed to go through that to become who I am. If I had them at a later age yes I might have been wiser. maybe more financially stable, maybe even at a better job , but I made those choices because it was the right choice at the time . I am thankful for all of my kids no matter what age they came in my life at. What's my ethnicity? Have I ever been to where my family originated from? On my mothers side I am Danish (from Denmark) On my fathers side I am a small bit of Irish and Norwegian I have never been to Europe to see any places that my ancestors have come from, but I would love to . If I go to Denmark I would love to see what was my great grandparents farm. I would love to see Belfast Ireland where my great grandma took her first steps on Titanic's sister ship, on her journey at 4 across the ocean to Canada I would love to get a full ancestral workup done on details on both sides of my family tree to get details on my family line , I would love to hear stories of how history has shaped us. My last name isn't so popular so I would love to know how it came about I think the biggest thing people are having generation and generation of children and are forgetting the great stories of bravery and triumphs within each of our family lines. We as parents should always make sure our children know where they came from , it keeps them grounded. My son is 4 and we as parents try extremely hard to tell him things like the moon and when dinosaurs roamed our great planet, We want it to spark his creativity about life , as he grows up he is filled with a great grounding and a love for culture. We are raising him to know and fill him with a passion for whatever he chooses. |
Lola28 year old Mom of 3 under 6 (2 boys 1 girl), TTC baby #4, Married to my soul mate, Photographer, nail artist, amazon reviewer, fashion addict, Looking to make a postive impact on this world one story at a time. I am looking to inspire people with love and peace Archives
June 2017
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